For as long as I can remember, being a functional human during winter has been a very difficult task. As the shorter days encompass the summer light, sadness inhabits every nook and cranny of my brain.
Every year around Autumn, I promise myself that this will be the year my mood doesn’t succumb to Winter. This year It’ll be business as usual, practicing, creating, photographing. I was so close this year. May ended, and June commenced. I was posting in all the places regularly, building myself a nice little content nest egg, then BAM out of seemingly nowhere I’ve been left with enough spoons to keep myself in “bare minimum”. (I would describe Bare minimum as being similar to safe mode on a computer)
Capitalism dictates that one must be able to work at the same pace endlessly without feeling tired or weary to be worth anything, and with my current work life I simply can’t do this. Equally I can’t lessen my work load as I need the income/I’m still trying to make the artistic practices I spend all of my “free time” on financially sustainable.
I’m counting down the days until winter stops chilling my bones and zapping my motivation. I’d love to hear from you if you have a similar experience. Winter sad-ers unite!!