I thought if I practiced my practice guilt would disappear, but if anything it’s made my practice guilt worse.
Since the end of last year I’ve found myself a lovely practice routine that shrinks and grows with the “free time” I have that day. On a busy day it can shrink to 10 mins, or it can grow to fit a “free day”. This means I’m practicing every day, I’m consistent with the stuff I’m working on, and I’m getting at least 10 hours a week of practice in (this is not including my teaching hours, nor my rehearsals). So why do I still feel guilty about not practicing enough?
Anecdotally it seems to be a common issue amongst many of my music mates. Perhaps this is left over from our childhoods where practice wasn’t as crucial to our identities, or perhaps it’s a reflection on our productivity based society that would have us work 24/7.
Either way, the practice guilt still persists.
Hopefully one day I’ll reach a point where music making is divorced from feelings of guilt and shame. Until then I’ll just have to keep practicing ;P