Emeralds on Mustard.

I'm going through a tough mental period at the moment which is resulting in a loss of motivation, and most worryingly for me, a loss of motivation to get dressed. It's not that I have nothing to wear (because that's absolutely not how I feel) it's more that I'm struggling with the combination of early mornings that my school bands require, the late nights that my performances and rehearsal require and the bitter cold that is the Australian winter. I basically want to spend 24/7 rugged up in multiple comfy layers of knit and blankets. 

All of those things put together mean that I'm basically throwing on a pair of thick tights, a plain, but nice enough dress and my favourite coat, which there's absolutely nothing wrong with, but it leaves me feeling "not put together" and dowdy. I miss colour, unexpected details and the motivation to have those things, but I don't currently have the energy or control over my exhaustion levels to change my mindset or patterns. 

I'm going to get real for a sec here. The way I'm feeling is not normal. I've been in this place many times before and usually I've had the luxury of time to get help so I can dig myself out of this hole. I've not got that luxury this time around. All of my time (During clinical hours) is taken up with immovable work, and I'm holding it together "well enough" that on good days I can convince myself that there's nothing wrong and I'm being an idiot. 

The day I put this outfit together was one of these aforementioned good days. I had energy the night before, and got up before I had to (which is a rarity these days). I really dig the combination of mustard and emerald (and I have no idea why I haven't combined these colour before!). I'm not really sure where this post was going, but a jumble of words is all I can manage at the moment. 

Christmas-y fun times

Shoes You know when you're a kid on christmas eve, and you absolutely can't wait for it to be the next day because Christmas is awesome? I totally had that kind of excitement, but for a different reason. Instead of being over the top excited to receive some presents, I was excited to give out the presents I'd bought/made.

It was lovely that Christmas has retained the childhood magic, but even lovelier that the joy has become about giving rather than receiving (pardon my cliche).

Surprise Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

It has been such a long and rough year, but celebrating with my family yesterday was a good way to finish it off. I stayed over at my parents house, then we had a couple of friends over for lunch. I finished the day with a good old photography session in the park and fell asleep on the lounge editing.

Spinning Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

The dress, cardigan and socks were all gifts from my parents (although, particularly from my mum).

Details Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

She has really shaped my stylistic preferences, and encouraged some of my more over the top outfits.

Hands on Hips Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress The Emerald Ruby

One of our favourite pastimes is looking at the new release dresses online from my favourite Australian designers (Lady Petrova, Kitten D'amour and Lousie Love), then lamenting the price of said dresses.

Brooch Details Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress The Emerald Ruby

They got me pieces from all 3 designers, two of which I'm wearing in this outfit.

hands behind back Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

The dress is from Kitten D'amour, which is designed by Alana Smith. Her design aesthetic is what I would call baroque inspired, although some of her pieces verge on 50's retro. The details and construction of her garments are immaculate, and to top it off, so very comfortable.

Head Shot Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

The cardigan is from Louise Love, which is the new label Alannah Hill created. Alannah Hill's story is a powerful one. She created a powerhouse label of her own namesake, but had to walk away from her label after a business dispute with factory X (who financially backed her label when she was first starting out). It still continues to be a successful label, but the designs of the clothes don't have the same magic or flair that they did when Hill was still designing.

When I heard she was designing again I was stoked. Mum and I had been regularly fawning over her collection all year (until the brand went on hiatus following some health problems Hill was having). This cardigan has the same tiny magical details that she's famous for (She has used tiny nuts, as in the thing you screw onto bolts, as beads!!!)

Showing off the pits Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress The Emerald Ruby

 

staring Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress Louise Love My Secret Cage of guilded terror The Emerald Ruby

 

Frog on a lilly pad ear rings

 

Walking forward Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress The Emerald Ruby

 

Walking away Kitten D'amour Cameo Lace Dress The Emerald Ruby

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas <3