Little green monsters.

Success is a very messy concept. 

There are so many different types, and different levels. There's your own idea of your success, and other peoples idea of what your success should be. 

Then there's the comparisons. How is your success the same/different compared to those other people? Why are they more/less successful than you? Should you be doing things differently to reach their success. Do you even want to? 

As someone who works in a creative field, I tend to think about success a lot (because creative success usually entails getting paid a living wage of some description). I really want to be a performer, so I spend a lot of time doing things to perfect my craft. I also have a lot of creative hobbies. While I love being creative, and thinking about how I can get my art seen/ music heard, I have to be really careful to not fall down the "I'm just as good, so why is (Insert whoever here) getting more attention/getting paid properly to do what they love" rabbit hole. 

Social media makes not comparing creative success really hard. You can literally measure someone's success in numbers. What's more, you can keep rigorous track of your own numbers. Take my instagram feed for example. I'm ashamed to say, at one point I knew exactly how many followers I'd gained/lost at any particular time, and depending on which had happened, I'd either feel content or a bit sad.

I've been working recently on not comparing myself to other people, particularly creatively. It's a recipe for disaster, and usually ends up destroying my own creative output. Instead, I've been focusing on the small successes - Like having a billion gigs, and getting that new technique down.   

I've also been thinking about what I expect of myself vs what others expect of me. I know what I love to do, and it's started to defer a little from the original plan, but will (in theory) end up in the same place. 

TLDR - Comparing your level of success can be bad. TLDR 2 - Rambly blog post is rambly and disjointed. 

Meadow Dreams

I had such fun this afternoon photographing todays outfit. 

I managed to find not one, not two, but three new places to shoot (which is a fairly large deal as I thought I had exhausted the local area of "secret locations" ). There's a fairly concealed walkway in the Narara/Wyoming area called "the glow path" and it's basically a tiny slice of heaven in what would otherwise be just another lot of busy roads and suburbs. 

Unfortunately my shoot was quite rushed as I may have forgot to charge my DSLR battery. When I rush, my focus goes, meaning the photo's from the third location (which was so very pretty) were very blurry. 

Speaking of sub par photography! Remember those awful photo's I took of the pine cone pants I sewed recently (totally cool if you don't)? Welp, those are the pants I wore today! :D Now you can actually see what they look like, instead of seeing a noisy dark blob. 

Shoes: Therapy, Pants: Home Made, Belt: Alannah Hill, Blouse: Thrifted

Shoes: Therapy, Pants: Home Made, Belt: Alannah Hill, Blouse: Thrifted

Not much happened today as far as life goes, but yesterday I played an awesome gig with the button collective and some awesome peeps at Blackwire records, which is an independent music store/venue. There were 5 music acts, and 5 poets. I'm not really in the head space for writing many things (which, you totally can't tell from the bulk of this post :P) so I'll leave the blow by blow concert review for another time. I can say however, that the whole concert was captivating and every musician that played and poet that read did so wonderfully.  

The vibe of the concert was also very unique. It was an unplugged session, meaning that no one was amplified. The show was sold out, the venue was packed, and you could hear the music perfectly, because everyone was there to listen. You don't get that very often playing in a contemporary setting. It was really nice. 

Anyway, I want to shout out all of the peeps that played: Alison Gallagher, Spencer Scott, David Le'aupepe  and especially Nothing Rhymes With David, who put together the whole shebang. <3